When you start being aware of your negative thoughts, emotions and negative people that are around, you have to remove them from your life... You can't have weeds in your garden that will cover the beautiful flowers that you have ... You have to make once and for all the decision to remove them all... The weeds will grow back but it will also be less and less as you get closer to your dreams. And when you start doing so, you will finally see the path that you need to take. Book soon to be released on following your heart and the steps to take to get to your purpose.