One of my biggest fears is that I will lose the people that I love. Sometimes I also wonder is there is anyone who has this fear about me as well. The love that I feel for family and close friends is so strong that it hurts at times and it reminds me of how lost I would be if they were gone. This fear is beyond reasoning or logic and it can be crippling at times. Does anyone ever feel this way about me though? How would my loved ones feel if I was no longer there? This leads to the fear that my life did not matter and no one will miss me when I have passed. I do not care that I will never have fame as the President of the United States or be known as the researcher who discovered the cure for cancer
I do care about whether I have had a positive impact on the lives of the people that I love. I want people to miss me and remember my undying devotion and dedication to family and friends. I want people to miss me because I was compassionate and made a difference with small acts of kindness. I want to be remembered as a good friend and a loving spouse. If I work hard to gain these characteristics and be a good person then hopefully those that I love will worry about losing me the way that I worry about losing them.