I was brought up as a Christian Orthodox, never considered myself to religious, but did the normal religious things, going on Sunday to church, confessing to a priest, taking communion on Sunday and just being an obedient Christian person. I only kept going to church because this is where I felt God's presence, it was never really to socialise because I never felt the people were really sincere in my Egyptian community, and so I never really felt connected with them, but I always felt that I need to be faithful to God no matter what is the environment around me. Until I finished writing a spiritual book that will soon be released, I realized that God is within you, He's not just in a building, and you see Him everywhere there is kindness, generosity, humbleness, love. Whenever you see those qualities in people, you see God. Whenever you see love, you see God. I also realized that rules and regulations are not made for you to stop being who you are supposed to be on Earth, they may help you in the beginning of your spiritual path but they serve no purpose anymore when your spirit is lifted up with God then the religious rules will suffocate you if you don't break free of them. So the important thing that you must ask yourself, is what you are doing today helping to grow as a person, emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. Is it helping you to give more love to others, to help more the less fortunate, to become more of a spiritual loving person, or is what you are doing dragging you down, making you procrastinate, being trapped in just a routine, just because everyone is doing it, you are doing it too. Do the actions that make you feel good, that helps you be a great loving person and that helps to get to your dreams. Don't let ignorance stop you from walking on the right path. Ask God to reveal to you the truth about how you ought to live your life. And He will guide you every step of the way.
It's an illusion that you are not free of doing what you desire. You are free to make your own decisions, you are free to have the life that you desire, you are free today. Own your life and start making the decisions that will get you one step closer to your dreams.