What does it mean to accept your past and present events. Can you really accept seeing your friend being shot on the street in front of you. Can you really accept your dad being in prison because of a crime that he did not commit, can your really accept that your girlfriend cheated on you and even though you still love her, you had to let her go. And then you may ask yourself if God really existed you would not go through those events; He would not allow it. Think twice, who are you to know how God works with us, who are you to judge Him, who are you to really understand God and why He is allowing things to happen or not to happen. Did you ever think that God wants your love, your heart, your faith and your trust in Him. You are going to tell me:"Well He is doing everything wrong to make me still believe in Him, He is taking away the people that I would have died for, He is making me suffer, how can I trust Him, when he has taken away all the people that I have loved and cared about." I don't know all the answer of why God allows things to happen. But one thing for sure I know that no matter what is going on in your life, God loves you. Every time you suffer, and feel deep pain in your heart and blood coming out of it, God wants you to rely on Him, He is allowing things to happen so you can rely only on Him and go into His arms, so you can start to feel His love for you. when you do so He will heal your pain. I can only write about my own experience, and I know that when He took away people that I loved dearly, I would just go and cry in His arms and of course ask Him why, but many times He would tell me "Don't ask why Nancy just do what your supposed to do and one day I may reveal to you why, but until then I'm testing you, I want to know how much you love me, and how much you would do for me, even if I take you away from everyone that you ever knew and take everything you ever possessed. I still want you to have faith in me and grow strong, because without suffering you will never reach the deepest feelings of love. You can't love unconditionally if you have not suffered first. You can't find out who you really are if you have never lost. You can't find out who your really love if you have never loved. You can't find out your purpose and why you were brought up in this life, if you have never lost any belongings. You can't help others from your heart if your are protected and shielded from sufferings. You can't connect with the pain of others that have lost if you never felt the same pain. All the suffering that you are going through is to transform you into a spiritual being, so you can be able to do your purpose on this Earth and you can show others what is unconditional love." So don't ask God why, ask God to give you the strength to become the person that He wants you to become, to help you detach from this world and become Love. All what you can say to God is "God you allowed it to happen, it means that I need to accept it, and make the best out of what I have. And if I have nothing God, I know I have you in my life and you will direct me or redirect me into the path now that I need to take. Maybe that event is going to make me take a decision that will get me on the right path, the one I am destine to be on. And when I am strong and I become the person you want me to become, I will go back to that neighborhood, I will go back to the family that lost a son, I will go back and visit my dad in prison and I will make a difference and spread love and peace. When you grow strong and achieve some of your dreams, don't forget where you came from and help lift up the people that are living now what you have lived in the past.